Searching the Whys

“God, my God! Why would you abandon me now?”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭22:1‬ ‭TPT‬‬

Ugh! I sounded like David today! Pretty sure I could have written my own chapter of Psalms.

Why is it 900 degrees in my house?
Why is my house still gutted?
Why did the drywall get ruined?
Why am I here?
Why did he leave?
Why can’t I seem to get unstuck?
Why Lord?

I am sure you have your very own “whys” today too. We are all at different stages of life. We all have been through different circumstsnces. And we all have asked the 1 million why questions. We face each morning with anticipation of new mercies but sometimes we are so focused on the why that we miss it.

Today as I was picking up a gift bag up for a friend I was standing at the checkout in the dollar store. Arms full of surprises and a few not really necessary items. A new cat toy. Some new colorful sharpies. Ya know, the little things you pick up along the way to the cash register.

As I stood in line just reflecting on some things while keeping my 6 foot distance trying to not sweat my mask off. Still frustrated that my house was so hot and fighting feelings of abandonment. Wondering why things are the way they are, I just happened to look at what was hanging on the shelf in the checkout lane.

A sign that said Dream Big.
And two calendars.

Might seem insignificant to any other human being but in that one moment I felt like I mattered. I felt important. Even after asking God my 9,226 questions He still wanted me to know that I was on His mind. Although I keep asking why every turn of the corner He still took the time to remind me that I have a purpose. I have a dream to fulfill. There is a reason why I am here.

Why did I feel so loved?

Because the date which was showing on BOTH of those calendars was my birthday. I don’t know how He does it but He puts the right things in the right place just for me. Why? Because He loves me. He wants me to know that He hears me. He does this in hopes that I will notice His love notes.
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