Forward Living

“for as you keep walking forward on God’s paths all your stumbling ways will be divinely healed!”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭12:13‬ ‭TPT‬‬

So much has happened in a little over a year. My dad passed away. My home was gutted. My marriage failed. My self worth was plummeting to its lowest level. I was shaken up. I was in distress. I needed answers. I had no idea how I was going to face another day. My heart was hurting. My mind was racing. I had no clue what I was going to do.

I had one constant in my life. God. I knew He would make a way, I just didn’t know how. After my husband left I tried to get people to work on the house. I attempted to get things in order. I found items I needed on FB Marketplace. I have cabinets and sinks and lights and a lot of the necessary items but it just wasn’t coming together.

I prayed.
I cried.
I begged.
I spoke the Word.
I chose forgiveness.
I surrendered.
I worshipped.
I prayed again.

Yet. Here we are 16 months later and I am still trying to just cover up the studs pretending I am okay with what has been done already. I stand here willing to just stay the course and move forward.

But the devil whispers to me, “nothing is happening.”

Sure it may look like nothing is happening but underneath the surface God is doing great and wonderful things. He is healing my heart. He is changing my perspectives. He is giving me hope. He has taught me I am worthy of love. He shows me daily that I am loved. Moment by moment my hope is renewed. Hour by hour my strength is returning. Day by day He is turning the bad into good. Week by week He shows me just how much He loves me.

I am to the point where I have a peace that won’t quit. I have a vision for this house. I have grown to trust and truly believe I have not been forgotten. I know God will turn this house into something magnificent because that’s just what He does.

After all. It’s all about healing me and making me whole …

It has nothing to do with this gutted out house.
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