Unforgettable Conversations

Philippians 4:7
And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Ephesians 3:19
and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.

Ephesians 4:18
being darkened in their understanding, excluded from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, because of the hardness of their heart;

Why me Lord?  Why do bad things happen to good people?  How did I end up where I am?  What happened to me?  When will things go better?  Who is going to take me out of this situation?  How many times have you asked these same questions?  How often do we not realize that no matter how difficult things seem for us at the moment, there may be someone else who is being affected as well?  As the result of a drug addicted husband, the conversation I had with my son today threw me for a loop.  I walked away from the table so confused as to why my son felt the way he did and then the Lord showed me the above verses and I saw so clearly what was happening.

Awhile back I gave my son to God and then I took him back only to lay him at the foot of Jesus a few months later.  After hearing a recent sermon I also determined to stick to that fact that God is control and I cannot change anyone, only God can.  So this sorta came in handy for my lunch conversation today.  I do not even know how the conversation turned to God, but it did.  My son had been active in the youth group and spoke in tongues, and then my husband’s suicide attempt put God on the back burner.  My son left church and began spending time away from home and rather disconnecting so to speak.  Then he began to say he did not believe in God (this is where I picked him back up for God) and I was shocked!  Here I was receiving revelation and healing from God and my son was denying His existence!

During our conversation at lunch, my son said he did not believe in God because he could not understand why God would leave me in such a situation for so long or why God would allow the drug addiction to rip our family apart.  Then he spoke the kicker:  What did he do to deserve this in his life?  Tears are flowing by this time and I was speechless.  I tried to “defend” God and my son just shut down and refused to listen.  I was so frustrated because I could not explain God to my own flesh and blood. Could he not see all of the good which had come in the past two years?  I know he lost a father, but his heavenly Father was blessing us.  I took it the Lord in prayer and He gave me the verses and a small simple word from one of my youth, “God comes to heal the broken-hearted.”  Bam!  God knew what I needed to hear and lifted my spirits.

Now I know I will never forget this conversation and God will continue to work in our lives, yet in the back of my head I just wonder what I could have done differently to stop this from happening.  Then, a moment on the floor with the Lord at revival and all those thoughts just disappear as God filled me with His love.  We often question our situations and we need to stop doing this and look for God.  He is near us in every situation even when we were the ones who made the bad choices.  God does come to heal the broken-hearted and I just need to be patient and let God do what He needs to do to interact in the lives around me.  In the meantime I will fill my time showing other how good our God is whether they choose to believe or not.