Today caused tears. Today was a wall of sweet memories hitting me like a wall. All the travels. All the little trips. The many adventures to see splendid sights. The amazing friends we made at campgrounds and area shops.
Today I found a travel toothbrush in my overnight bag. There were two in there. One for me and one for my husband. I’m not sure why I cried. It’s been 3 months since he left and divorced me but tears came anyways.
I stood there in the hotel bathroom actually deciding if I wanted to even throw it away. I really struggled for a minute. Then in one quick motion I removed it from the bag and threw it in the garbage.
Then more tears. There was such a finality to throwing away a stupid toothbrush. No more long drives to see the cows. No more trips for coffee. No more trips to see Northern Michigan. No more fires in the backyard together.
Ugh! I know the pain will pass and happiness will return but in this moment my heart is sad. It is in letting go of a toothbrush that I let go of him. It’s like one final thing in the many I have recently tossed away knowing they have no need on my life anymore.
So now, on to new adventures tho they may just be by myself. It’s just me and Jesus again and oh the adventures I’m sure we will encounter!!
I pray for any of you today who have hurting hearts. I pray Jesus will meet you right where you are and soothe your wounds.
Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning. Psalm 30:1-5 ESV