I Don’t Care, but ya Know I do….

Ever get to this point in life where you just don’t care anymore, almost as if your care button is broken?  In ministry no matter what you are called to, you are commanded Biblically to love others. Sometimes this is very hard to do when the people you are trying to love just don’t seem to care enough to make it worth it.  This is my struggle.  I work hard.  I try to separate home from work and it seems no matter what I do to get to this place, something is always seeping in.

I love my job most days, yet there are times when I have just had enough and we go back to that ostrich syndrome that I spoke of a few blogs back, I just want to bury my head in the sand and hope it all goes away.  Am I being selfish? Do I really not care? No and no.  We all need a healthy separation from things. So what is really bothering me?  Why don’t I want to care anymore?  Here are the things I discovered as I sought God:

1.  Not everyone has the same passion

2.  Nobody has the same drive to do things

3.  People are motivated by different things

4.  For some people, YES this is just a means to an end purpose

So, now what does this all boil down to?  Do I get to choose to stop caring because it appears as those others don’t care?  Do I become a people pleaser?  Do I just do what I need to do and not worry how it is affecting others? Nope. Respect is the answer.  There needs to a revelation on respecting each others purposes.

When I chose Jesus into my life, I chose to love. I chose to care.  I chose to help people.

So I guess the answer is simple..keep calm and keep caring.  I choose in this moment of time to keep caring, to keep helping others find who they are.  I will continue but perhaps with a different approach.  Instead of thinking they don’t care, maybe I could view it as they are doing their best in their situation.  We often have to stop and carefully consider where  a person has been and what they have been through.  For years in my previous marriage I had to try and separate the wreckage of home life and my job.  I am thankful for understanding bosses who understood what I was dealing with.  I need to have that same heart and compassion for the people I know.