When it comes to perspective we have to have the right filter on in order to see clearly what God is doing in our lives. For example you get stopped at a red light when you need to be somewhere in a hurry or get stuck behind a slow driver with no way to pass. You get frustrated and maybe a little road rage erupts, however, WHAT IF God was protecting you from an accident? I could spend all night sharing instances of us having the wrong perspective but I would like to share a story with you that is happening in my life right now. A story which will demand me having the correct prospective.
So long story short without too many gory details, I have been experiencing off and on several female issues in the past 5 or 6 years. I went for a physical recently and my blood work showed I had an hemoglobin (iron) level of 8.7 when it is suppose to be a 12. So now doctor wants some answers…more blood work (only to show the level is now 8.3) **no cause for panic yet..it’s at 7 when a blood transfusion is needed**. Now there is a trip to the OBGYN for an ultra sound and biopsy because things are a little more serious than I was seeing. A trip to the colon doctor for a colonoscopy just to rule out where I am losing iron. How do I feel at this point? I guess a little nervous but surely wanting answers.
Now I do need to let you in on a little back story, I will keep it short, I am recently remarried as of five years ago and we had decided kids were not something we wanted as I was in my 40s and my husband in his 20s (yes God did a wonderful thing while my perspective was not to get remarried but that’s a blog for another day) and we were good with that. Well until a prophet said to us one day ” The Lord will make a way for you two to have a child physically (my tubes are tied) and financially if you come back to this alter in agreement. God did a change of heart in both of us, yet I do not recall us actually going back to the altar in agreement, so it’s been about 3 years since this new development in our life.
Okay, current day…we visit with the OBGYN and she remembers our conversation from 2 years ago in which we discussed options for getting pregnant and then explains I have a 8 cm fibroid which is pushing on my uterus causing most of my issues. It is not cancerous but just basically a large muscle which has developed over time. Before she gave us our options she asks about getting pregnant and in a nutshell my husband spoke up and said, “In all reality I am really jealous for my wife’s time and I like that we can just pick up and go at any time, so let’s do what is best for my wife.” (yes there were tears all around) Getting that topic of discussion out of the way, on to the topic at hand…what to do next. How do I feel at this point? Maybe some relief of the pressure of trying to get pregnant these last three years. A little nervous still about the plan ahead.
She explained a procedure where I could get injections every three months to perhaps shrink the fibroid and stop my periods but that would only last a year. Next option is partial hysterectomy to which my husband asked why not the whole thing? Because, says the doctor, “We don’t her to become cranky, irritable and experience hot flashes right after surgery.” To which my husband replied , “Let’s keep the ovaries in there!”
So how am I feeling at this point? A surgeon is about to extract a major part of my body, yet I am at peace. I could be freaked out and panicked yet I know God is in this and is guiding all of the events ahead of me. In one surgery many issues that I have been dealing with for years will be taken away along with unnecessary pain. I guess what really brought me to this perspective was reading a devotion with my husband where there quoted Psalm 103 in which it said God will remove my enemies. In that moment I thought, wow, God is allowing this to happen because He is protecting me from an attack of the enemy. I was just flooded with peace at that moment.
Now of course I can look at the funny side of this too, I had asked Him to help me lose weight..never thought removing an organ would be the answer. Plus I was just saying I needed a vacation and this requires 2 weeks off. Well play God, however this only brings us to a deeper realm of faith as I have no short term disability. We will have to trust God to provide during that time which I know He will as He has done in the past. If I had the wrong perspective about this my husband and I would just be worried about how things were going to get paid, where can we pinch more out of our budget, can we get hours in at work before the surgery and on and on and on.
The wrong perspective can riddle our daily lives with unnecessary work and needless agony. When our perspective is out of whack we should turn to God in prayer and ask Him for His perspective. When we view things through the correct lens we see peace in the situation instead of a need for performance on our part. God is our provider. He is our Healer. He is our all in all. I was talking with a friend to day about us asking God to remove things from our lives and I said we have the wrong perspective.
We are not the surgeon, God is. He is the one Who decides what needs to be removed from our lives to keep us from harm. He is our protector and always knows what is best for us. It would be like me going to the surgeon and telling them to give me a hysterectomy because I thought that would heal me, however the surgeon using wisdom may have a different option all together. Same thing with God. Sometimes we ask to be delivered from something yet God knows we may need to keep that in our lives to help us learn a lesson or receive revelation. We need to allow Him to be the surgeon. We need to let Him perform the necessary procedures to bring us into the fullness of revelation.