Pity Party..Table for One

1 Peter 3:13-15

¹³ Now, who will want to harm you if you are eager to do good? ¹⁴ But even if you suffer for doing what is right, God will reward you for it. So don’t worry or be afraid of their threats. ¹⁵ Instead, you must worship Christ as Lord of your life. And if someone asks about your Christian hope, always be ready to explain it.

Ever feel like you just don’t make a difference anywhere you go?  Perhaps you are failing at work or school.  Maybe you just lost some friends who you thought really mattered in your life.  Or your life that you had planned out just is not panning out like you thought it would.  You just feel like your dreams are empty and all this “work” you put into your life was for nothing.  You just want to sit in a corner and pretend like you don’t matter, when in reality you are making a difference in someone’s life and you don’t even know it.

A few blogs ago I expressed how I felt about losing my facebook friends, well at the same time I was failing at work, dealing with things in my new marriage as we begin to set the foundation and trying to pre-sell enough copies of my book which was not going well.  I had a lot going on and I felt as though all those things were going in the wrong direction.  I felt like I was not making a difference no matter what I did.

When I started writing I said this one phrase which I will always stand by….If I can help one person find Jesus then I have accomplished what I set out to do.  Well, as I was having my pity party just a few days ago, I received a facebook message from someone I had not heard from in over a year.  She shared with me how what I spoke to her a year ago helped her to find Jesus and to set her life on the right path.  Isn’t that just like God to show up and show me that I am exactly where I need to be in His will.

I have since come to terms with even if I don’t see the results right in front of me that maybe I am making a difference for God.  By stepping out and sharing who I am in Christ people see there is hope, even if I can’t see it happening.  Today at church we learned about honor and to give honor where honor is due.  To simplify how this applies here, I was honored that by honoring God I was able to make a difference just by sharing Jesus.  It’s never about me, it’s always about what God is doing in my life and through me.

So for me this pity party is over and want to sit a table for many more that one.  I want to just keep following after Jesus and introducing Him to the people around me.  I just want others to see that there is hope.  There is a reason for living.  There is a purpose for this existence.