[ Listening and Doing ] Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry.
Can we all agree that life is not all about smooth sailing? There are storms which arise and sometimes we lose our direction. We lose sight of where we were going and get lost in the destruction of the storm. We feel like the purpose of our voyage has changed a bit and we are unclear of how to get back on track or change directions. I have been feeling lately like things are just being tossed about in my life. I am happy and secure in my life at the moment yet there is this constant storm off in the distance. I feel at times that in any given moment of time my boat might just tip over and I will be left on my own to swim.
Now, I, not being a swimmer am fearful of this word “swim”. This thought process puts me in a place of unease at times. Where am I at this point if I know God is in control? How is there any shred of doubt within me? I really don’t have an answer at this point. God has moved so swiftly lately in my life it is almost like when the disciples were in the midst of their storm at sea and God just calmed everything down and they were at their destination in the blink of an eye.
I look back past the last huge storm in my life and I wonder how I ever survived. Now I am on dry land and safe, yet there are aspects to my life that just don’t make any sense. I know who I am in Christ and I cling tight to that mentality. I push away the lies of the enemy but how do I deal with the losses which came from leaving the storm behind? Was what was lost for a reason? Were the people that once were good friends just for a season? All of this brings me to one major question: Who am I to question what God is doing right now?”
So here I am, swimming in uncharted waters. I am leaving my boat right now and diving into the waters that I know are safe because He has me right were I need to be. No matter what others around me are thinking, I am secure in my relationship with God and nothing is going to shake that foundation. God loves each of us individually and He knows our every struggle. He will give us daily the strength we need to refocus and push forward. Within all of this, we still have to follow after Jesus and adhere to the principles He has set forth in the Bible…sometimes that is really hard to do.
It feels good to know God is in control even when my flesh is concerned with so many different struggles. I don’t want to go through the changes sometimes that it takes to make me into the woman of God He has destined for me, yet I know I need to lose the ugly before the beauty of God can break through.