How Long Will it Be?

I have been blogging a bit about giving it all up and carrying luggage around.  I have shown how these things work in my life and now I am moving forward step by step, little be little into the realm of my destiny just like God promised me.  How long did this take….hmmmmm..YEARS!  I went through some experiences and had some valley walks which made me stronger in the Lord and more at peace than ever before.  Sometimes we get caught up on the how long God? and the when it is gonna happen Lord? that we can’t wrap our minds around what is going on.  We live in a now society and sometimes we think God should be that way all the time too!

When we are surrounded by our life and it is not going so well, what are we doing to change our circumstances?  How do we change our positions so that God can actually work on our behalf?  Why do we think that it is always God that needs to do something?  Perhaps we fail to realize that things sometimes just take time.  Maybe there are other factors which are related to your circumstance that you cannot see.  Let’s just use my past marriage as an example.

I stood by my husband year after year wanting things to change.  When he stopped drinking I was excited until I saw what drugs was beginning to do to him.  Man, I felt stuck so what did I do?  I quit on God.  Yup, gave Him up like it was Lent and I was fasting something I really needed!  I was willing to give up the one thing that would get me out of the mess I was in just for the sake of trying to keep my family together.  I was in a place where I felt guilty that I had chosen against God’s will.

So how did things change?  Well for one it still took time for my miracle to occur.  I had to position myself with God again and as soon as I realized that I needed God, He began to change me, not my situation.  So many times we just want a quick fix and do not realize we might have been part of the problem.  We expect God to fix those problems in our lives, not seeing that we are the ones in need of fixing as well.  As God begins to heal your brokenness , He starts showing you the people and circumstances that you need to forgive.

With me the startling factor in the working of my miracle was that I needed to forgive myself.  Yes, myself.  I had to realize that I was beating myself up daily for the mess I had gotten in to.  Once I decided to forgive me, that is when things began to change.  I was able to receive God’s love.  I was able to forgive people in my life.  I was able to love again because I was beginning to love myself.