For whoever finds me finds life and receives favor from the LORD.
How often does God try to enlighten you with wisdom or healing or just a gentle touch to let you know that He is there? How many times do we not accept His Love because we are broken and feel as though we are unworthy of acceptance even in the presence of our Creator? Why does it seem to be such a difficult thing to stand in surrender, to cry out to God or place our hope in God as our provider in all circumstances? What is it that stops us dead in our tracks making it so hard to move forward? Past woundedness. Bad choices. Lack of faith. No hope left to have. So many things that are not of God which we allow to hinder our walk. This is exactly where Satan wants us to reside so that we become more lost and farther away from God than ever before. Well, in this moment let us choose to say, “Satan! Get behind us!”
I have been through many years of loss. Years of my life have been spent in denial. I was good at hiding the brokenness and pretending like I had everything under control. I hid myself from God and I knew the moment I had it all figured out I would allow God back into my life. Tormented by wrong decisions for my life and unbelief, I was not able to receive or accept God’s love which hindered me from setting my ship sailing on the calm waters with Jesus. Oh how I longed to be in His presence having surrendered it all and resting in peace, yet I could not get past the guilt and shame of my past. I felt unworthy of any kind of love, especially God’s.
Having been blinded to love for so many years, I find it hard in this moment of time to receive. I also find it difficult to accept love of any kind. Amidst my brokenness I found self-blame. I assumed the responsibility of my wrong actions and I placed a wall up that only God knew was there and He was waiting for me to just let my guard down so that He could love me back together. He had to wait until I was ready to give up. He had to wait until I was shattered enough to want to give up. As I stood in one final surrender just recently, God has allowed my spirit to be filled with a right love, a love like nothing I have ever experienced before. What did it take for me to overcome? Surrender. Grace. Pure love.
If we can only learn to give it up the minute it happens, brokenness can no longer hold us down. If we would just choose to give it up instead of taking it in, God can work some awesome things into our spirits, allowing us to flow IN Him and be about the Father’s business: sharing the love of His Son. Oh to reside in this place for the rest of my days, surrendering daily my brokenness so that God can love me back together which will enable me to receive and accept His love, thus giving me the opportunity to ship His love to those who are broken and lost in this world.
Choose in this moment to surrender. Choose in this moment to give it all up. Choose in this moment to let God mess up your life! I did and now I am sailing clear waters.