“My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Galatians 2:20 NLT
Ever wonder what God is up to? It never ceases to amaze me the crazy stories I hear about those who have come to know the Lord. Sometimes the way God works things out is nothing like we planned it out to be. We are often puzzled by the happenings we witness around us all the time. My life has been no different. Yes, I made some bad choices along the way, but God turns all things to good for His glory. This is happening right now in my life and as I sit in a period of rest, God is doing all these things on my behalf. Let me be real with you here for a moment on this early Easter morning as we focus on resurrection time. This is a time for renewal. A time for new beginnings. A time to see just how alive in Christ we are.
As I sit here I can tell you I am at rest. I am doing nothing to force God into moving. I am in surrender and in worship mode. I have completely just let things happen in my life in the last few weeks and it has been amazing to watch God at work. My book is finished and being edited. Nothing I can do here but wait. I just received a promotion at work to General Manager. I knew I was being considered but they only let me know like two weeks ago. I was told I would be attending Hamburger University in August so I thought I had all summer to prove whether I deserved the position or not. Nope, they told me this Tuesday I was acting General Manager as of that past Sunday. Here again, nothing I did, just waiting and being obedient. The house situation, I laugh at this one. They lowered the price to $100,000, we have a possible buyer in mind for my dads house and we feel we are to just scrap out the trailer. Once more, God is in control because I let it go.
Now, here is the icing on the cake. Some may feel differently about this, yet I know that I know that I know it is God at work this very moment. There is so much God in this part of the story I probably can’t even explain it all in words. I have surrendered my marriage. Through soaking prayer, I have let my husband be released to God and I am married to Jesus. Clearly Jesus is taking care of my every need and providing the things I am in need of. Meanwhile, God is doing a work in my husband. This by far is the saddest part of my rest period but I feel it will be the one which brings the most joy. My husband is currently in the county jail waiting sentencing. He has been charged with forced entry and burglary. I do not know all the circumstances but according to the police officer I spoke with it must be pretty serious since the judge placed a $100,000 bond for him.
The timing for this situation is not favorable. Those who have read my Day of Deliverance know that on April 13th, 2009, my daughter’s 15th birthday my husband tried to commit suicide while strung out on several drugs. This situation comes 10 days before my daughter turns 18 which means if he is convicted of this crime, he will not only miss her birthday but also prom, graduation and her open house. Yet with all of this I am at peace knowing this is an answer to prayer. Not long after my husband and I were separated I had two different times of people praying over our family and it was prophesied that my husband would come to know the Lord through going to prison. Since what he is being charged with is a felony, this could be it. I cannot pretend to know what God is up to, however restoration is one of the promises He gave to me.
To further my excitement, at an Easter drama last night at a nearby church, God moved me in my spirit to write Brian’s name on one of my business cards and I was able to give it to a member of Teen Challenge (the place where Brian is suppose to go to find healing) and then my friend had me fill out a prayer request which I thought was weird since I do not attend that church and God was already at work. I filled it out anyways and gave it to the pastor, I giggled a little inside when his exact words were, ” I will make sure this gets to our jail ministry persons.” I so know God is at work and the fire in my belly is such a comfort. God is true to keep His promises and as I am in this rest period I am content knowing God is in control and there is nothing I have to do but be obedient in my surrender.
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Brenda, all I can say is CONGRATS!!! I am on the edge waiting for that future blog where you write that you are gaining progress with your husband. Even though I’ve told you I had some weird feelings and disfavor about him, I just hope that you get what you deserve from him because you have been PATIENT for a long time.
its really strange that the value of your house is the same as his bond. Do you think that if you paid for his bond, would he really learn anything from this? Becuase usually when people are in prison, they have no choice but to sit there and think of the things they’ve done. Not to mention you have to think about the other people he’s hurt with this felony. Would they get justice if his bond is paid and he’s a free man? But then you have to think about your daughter who is about to graduate. He will miss that once-in-a-lifetime event. But then again, if he really cared, he would have made sure he was on his behavior to see his daughter celebrating her success. There are so many Buts! I don’t know what to think. All I know is that surrendering is good! You are living proof and I am glad you shared this becuase it inspires me to let go of some things I have a hard time with.
Yes, I too find it strange about the matching money symbolism. Matter of fact one of my best friends said I had better not even think about posting bail! Not even a thought of it! I am no longer an enabler! I have overcome much in that area. I prayed his dad would not bail him out as well and he did not. Brian needed a serious wake up call since almost dying did not do the trick. He is exactly where he needs to be in order for God to work, just praying!
Amen, standing in agreement with you!
Wow! I have missed several of your postings, but have saved them ALL in a folder to read when I can… but this one caught my eye & I made myself stop & read. Bless you, Brenda! I know He is true to His promises… and will be praying for your husband to surrender his life & his heart to the Lord! I am so looking forward to an opportunity to read your book, God willing…
Thank you so much! God is in control and I am just resting in Him! P.S. my editor texted me today to tell me she is almost done!!!!